“And writing was such a fragile thing. It wasn’t hard to write well, but it was hard to make writing that was alive, writing that could prise open the world and draw it together in one and the same movement. When it didn’t work, which it never really did, not really, I would sit there like a conceited idiot and wonder who I thought I was, supposing I could write for others. Did I know any better than anyone else? Did I possess some secret no one else possessed? Were my experiences particularly valuable? My thoughts about the world especially valid?”
— Karl Ove Knausgaard, The End (trans. by Martin Aitken and Don Bartlett)
It is characteristic that Knausgaard would think and express this sentiment in his book. In the final volume of his My Struggle series, he reflects on the fallout from the earlier books and confronts the fundamental questions of authorship, the presumption implicit in believing one’s words deserve a reader’s attention. This self-interrogation sits at the heart of the 1153-page conclusion to his 3600-page autobiographical project, a work that deliberately bears the provocative title of Hitler’s Mein Kampf.
What makes this passage so resonant is not merely that it articulates the doubt that haunts any serious writer, but that it comes from an author whose entire literary project hinges on the conviction that the minutiae of an ordinary life, observed with sufficient attentiveness and honesty, might indeed reveal something universal. Knausgaard’s doubt is not performative but existential—a genuine wrestling with the ethical implications of writing itself.
The question he poses: “Did I possess some secret no one else possessed?”—becomes all the more poignant in a work that has deliberately eschewed literary artifice in favour of exhaustive, sometimes exhausting, documentation of daily life. His doubt illuminates the paradox at the center of his endeavor: that through the most intensely personal examination, he might somehow reach beyond the personal entirely.