Amazed Contemplation

Kind met doodshoofd (Vanitas), Simon van de Passe, after Crispijn van de Passe (I), 1612

The last days of dear old winter. Much of this year spent in a haze, reading little but well.

I read Yiyun Li’s Dear Friend, from My Life I Write to You in Your Life, a remarkably fine and wise contemplation of self-knowledge and the abyss of depression. Much of this explores the reduction of the human. The book also echoed a sentence I once transcribed from an attempt to read Hegel: This release of itself from the form of its own self is the highest freedom. That reading of Hegel resisted coherence, but that sentence, a coalescence of poetry and philosophy cut so deep I have transferred it from notebook to notebook.

The Vast Extent by Lavinia Greenlaw plays with light and attentiveness. I entered the aura of the text and did not want to leave. It is an extraordinary work that slips away from genre and definition. It works on the edge of autobiography but never quite removes the mask.

Spinoza looms over this year’s reading following my fascinated scrutiny of George Eliot’s translation of Ethics. I’m slowly reading Eliot’s Journals. Unlike Woolf’s diaries, these are economic, writing that subtracts ornament and distraction, but remains somehow rich and expressive.

Lengthening Days

How delightful, even to elders like us, to feel Spring breathing once more over air and earth! We have been quite happy and contented with Winter, however severe; nor have we ever felt the slightest inclination to be satirical on that hoary personage. On the contrary, there is not a Season of them all whom we love better than hale, honest Winter.

— John Wilson, Streams (April 1826)

My Year in Reading 2023

At the beginning of Chapter XI in the second volume of Laurence Sterne’s Tristram Shandy he writes, “Writing, when properly managed (as you may be sure I think mine is) is but a different name for conversation.” I’ve derived much satisfaction in reading Tristram Shandy this year with a growing sense of wondering admiration. Though I’ve restarted the book three times I don’t expect to reach the end this year. Some part of me does not wish to finish. I appear to be acquiring multiple copies of the book, less defensible than giving precious shelf space to multiple translations of Homer, Dante or Don Quixote.

When younger, Dante’s Inferno, was my desert island book, but these days I am drawn more to Purgatorio. It never grows stale. This year I loved discovering the slow stanzas of Charles Singleton’s translation of this inexhaustible work. While not perhaps my favourite, the translation and heroic notes helped me to become tuned to Purgatorio in new ways. Where once the vivid imagery and intense themes of Inferno captivated me, I find the nuanced journey through Purgatorio more compelling, particularly its exploration of redemption and moral complexity.

What delights I found in Confessions of an English Opium-Eater, as direct and subversive as anything I’ve read. It is full of humour and was perfect reading for a blissfully long, damp summer. I should never underestimate my fondness for digressive, elastic books that give off a sense of prodigious erudition. Thomas De Quincey’s The Last Days on Immanuel Kant, read in a new edition published by Sublunary Editions was equally brilliant, offering a deeply humanizing portrayal of the philosopher.

There were some modern books that greatly interested me: Natassja Martin’s brilliant In the Eye of the Wild, translated by Sophie Lewis, a heart-in-the-mouth story I read twice in a row, marvelling on each page; from Fitzcarraldo Editions, Jeremy Cooper’s Brian and Kate Briggs’ The Long Form, formidably intelligent writers, whether writing essays or fiction. I was also highly entertained listening to the audiobook of Gabriel Krauze’s Who They Was, a book I would never have read on the page, but came to my attention through the subscriber edition of Backlisted.

Good biographies are rare. Jason Baxter’s The Medieval Mind of C. S. Lewis: How Great Books Shaped a Great Mind is first class and an enjoyable introduction to that writer’s precise prose. Lewis’s The Discarded Image is revelatory in bringing to life the reliable joys to the found in mediaeval and renaissance literature.

The most puzzling book I encountered this year was rereading Cyril Connolly’s The Unquiet Grave, a pensive work of recollection. I’m not sure how this unlikely and peculiar book exists but I am delighted by its existence.

This year I’ve spent much more time reading than in conversation about books. That must always have been the case as I’ve always been lucky enough to have time to read, but there appear to be fewer places to share enthusiasms with friends who share my urgent need for books. Social channels are dispersed and inclined to lapse into hyperbole about the same few contemporary prose works.

It is some consolation that such channels provide fewer distractions, allowing more time for the sort of concentrated reading I prefer. The year began with Twelfth Night. It renewed my devotion to Shakespeare’s plays which peaked with readings of The Tragedy of Hamlet and King Lear, the latter surely the most perfect form of words devised for such purpose. I intend to continue reading the other works in no particular order, as whimsy dictates.

Kant: Table-Talk

His style of conversation was popular in the highest degree and unscholastic; so much so, that any stranger who should have studied his works, and been unacquainted with his person, would have found it difficult to believe, that in this delightful companion he saw the profound author of the Transcendental Philosophy.

—Thomas De Quincey (The Last Days of Immanuel Kant)

Shortly after 10 a.m. It is seven degrees. The cooler weather is spacious, my reading appetite voracious. I am distracted from early Anita Brookner by Thomas De Quincey who I expect to become essential to me. His piece on the final days of Kant is not lesser to The Confessions of an English Opium Eater, one of my favourite books that I’ve read this year.

Distraction

The heat has thrown my reading routine into disarray, and I find myself easily distracted whenever I attempt to pick up a book lately. I’m craving a literary project, something substantial to sink my teeth into – a lengthy novel, a complete immersion in Shakespeare’s works, or perhaps Cicero’s Letters to Atticus, or Coleridge’s Marginalia. Henry James is one of the notable gaps in my reading journey, and I yearn for the deep immersion that only a significant project can offer.

Alternatively, I’ve contemplated taking a hiatus from reading altogether. The oppressive heat seems to sap my concentration, and with an upcoming journey, I’m tempted to leave without packing a book. The challenge of abstaining from reading for a while could become a unique project in itself.

Currently, there’s a stack of books I’ve started but left unfinished: Martial’s Liber Spectaculorum, Peter Brown’s Journeys of the Mind, Herodotus, a collection of essays by Elizabeth Hardwick, and the final installment of George Sims’s trilogy on memoirs within the rare book trade. These half-read books serve as a reminder of my distraction.